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All narcissists are hypocrites.  They pretend to have morals and values, that they really don't possess.  Behind closed doors, they lie, insult, criticize, disrespect and abuse.  They can do and say whatever they want, but how dare you say anything back to them or criticize them.  They have a whole set of rules for others, but follow none of their own rules, and practice nothing of what they preach.

Strange Patterns Even Stranger Things

Your girl started watching Strangers Things this Saturday :o

Yes I have become one among millions of viewers.  It's interesting because I never had a strong desire to watch the show.  I was content with Riverdale and Criminal Minds; my two current shows.

But I didn't have ANY homework over the weekend.  I didn't have any shows to watch since I was all caught up.  It seemed like the right time to get sucked into another show :)

I tend to do this "thing" with shows that I don't watch. I just stalk the cast on Insta and watch all their promo interviews on YT.  It's pretty cool that you can just fall in love with a cast just based on their personalities and camaraderie without watching their work.

Said "thing" was done with the cast of Teen Wolf (among others), and Stranger Things.

Going into S01E01 I already knew the main cast and some spoilers.  But that didn't take away from the enjoyment factor.  It was like a really long thriller movie.  Was it my favourite?  No.  That 70's Show will probably always be my favourite show (#HydeAndJakieForever).

I enjoyed Stranger Things because it is cinematically beautiful, the actors are talented, the thrill is captivating, and there was only 8 episodes in the first season, which makes for a good excuse to binge it all over the weekend.  Though I have to admit I was pretty disappointed that I couldn't start and finished all of season 2 this weekend since the episodes are 56 mins long!

I also don't have any homework today, which is surprising.  So, you know what I'll be doing tonight!  Don't worry I'm also somewhat productive when I watch it.  I'm currently working on a sewing project.

Sweater thrifted

Skirt Rue 21

Tights unknown

Ring and earrings F21 (though I rarely feel the need to shop there anymore)

As always thanks for reading!

I'm trying this new format of writing where I have more paragraphs but of shorter lengths.  I found while reading other blogs that I quite prefer reading like this.

Sophia

Can't think of a title right now. All I now is Demi is going on tour next year! Also, Criminal Minds and Riverdale air tonight!

Every now and then, I feel suffocated in a world of constant consuming.  

I used to adore beauty Youtubers.  I had started following their channels well before being a “Youtuber” was a well-known occupancy.  They would do makeup hauls, clothing hauls, tutorials, and wish list videos.  I just remember being brainwashed into wanting all the products they had.  I wanted to constantly go shopping to buy new things.  But of course, I couldn’t afford to constantly spend my mom's money.  I still can't afford it that matter. 

I was raised in a fairly frugal way of living, which only made me feel more ashamed of myself.  Fashion can be toxic.  That's a pretty well-known fact.  But I'm a blogger.  I love clothes.  Most people tell me I should become a "designer".  The fact is, I don't think I would be content working in the fashion industry.

Everything I put in my blog-whether that be my photos or my writing-it's all very personal.  I have never written or included photos of anything that didn't remotely inspire or motivate me.  The one exception would be my first and last makeup post.  That was just me at the start of my blogging days, trying to blend Youtubing and Blogging into one entity.  Trying to write about things I wasn't all too passionate about.  That didn't last very long.

All those beauty Youtubers I used to watch, I no longer do.  They've evolved (most into "lifestyle" Youtubers whatever that entails), and I've evolved.  I've found a more sincere and humbling connection to those that don't make videos full time.  We all have lives outside of the internet and I think it's important we are conscious enough to put a barrier between the two.

I also think it's important for me to not let fashion overrule my decisions.  To take my time and find what inspires me.  To wear what I want to wear.

Everything thrifted aka the best way to live life.

My thoughts were pretty all over the place.  Hopefully, I was somewhat legible?

Thanks for reading,

Sophia

:O Is That Vintage Jeremy Scott?

This Thursday I became President of my school's HOSA team.  This is a huge step for me because I was definitely not born a leader.  I genuinely care about people's interests and perspective on matters which means I'm always compromising.  If people need me, I'm there.  I never want anyone to feel left out.  I think I'm a great team member, but I still need to branch out and not be scared to take the lead.  This position is a huge deal for me and an incredible opportunity to rise to the occasion and prove myself wrong.  I'm hoping that this leadership position will give me more confidence and authority to delegate others and express my ideas and concerns.

For me, there's more to life after undergrad.  I want to get into vet school, I want to be an active member of animal protection organizations, and to be able to travel the world for my practice as well as broadening my knowledge of global culture and issues by experiencing them first hand.  I imagine great things in my future but feel so intimidated by the possibility of failure.  Right now, deciding which universities I want to apply to (so far it's Guelph, Trent, Western, McGill, McMaster) and which programs I want to study is very stressful.  I'm the type of personality that is so fickle minded because I want to know about everything on both sides, I want to test my hand on any new experience, I want to learn so much.  This makes it so hard for me to be be certain about what I want to study in my undergrad.  Do I want to major in Animal Health and Disease with a minor in Anthropology or Microbiology?  Or do I want to major in Microbiology and Minor in Animal Health and Disease?  Do I want to apply to a big university or a smaller one?  I think my main concern would be maintaining a high GPA.  This is crucial when applying to vet school.  But it seems as though the programs I do want to study will be very academically challenging.

Working with animals and being a first hand heath care provider for them is my life's vision.  I need to continue to push myself and find confidence.  I will continue to update this blog because I need proof that I am growing as an individual.  That I have had successes in life.  That I am always one step closer to the life I want to lead.  I hadn't really thought about my blog as serving as a documentary of my successes and a personal motivator.  But I'm writing this post and I've come to realize that's what it has transformed to become.  It's about the big picture, but it's equally about the milestones.  One day, we can look back at my older posts and read about my journey.

Blazer is thrifted vintage Jeremy Scott!!!!

Top is UB2

Trousers are thrifted H&M

Heels are Dex Flex

Thank you so much for reading!  Here's to many more :)

Sophia

Glitz and Blue Denim Flares

I'm 17 years old and I've never been to a high school party.  The friends I surround myself are just not party people, and neither am I.  I also chose not to attend school dances.  On one hand, I couldn't care less about parties and spending time near people so polar opposite from myself.  Then again, I'd be lying if I didn't admit a curiosity and desire to want to attend a party.  I've read so many YA books, especially as a preteen, and I've seen A-Z when it comes to teen movies.  It's only natural curiosity that I should want to experience, if for only one time, a real high school party.  I doubt I'd enjoy it in the moment, and I'd absolutely feel out of place, but still I want to know what it's like.

All things said, the only party I will probably ever attend will be prom.

 These past two years, my reading as definitely matured.  I've found a keen interest in nonfiction science books.  I notice that now whenever I read a teen novel, I don't enjoy them as much as I used to.  Perhaps it's because they literally talk about kids my age, and I can hardly relate to their

 lives.

 Sheer glitter top is thrifted

Blue tank is maybe Aeropostale?

Jeans are thrifted

Puma suede platforms are thrifted

Purse is thrifted

Thanks for reading,

Sophia