Every now and then, I feel suffocated in a world of constant consuming.
I used to adore beauty Youtubers. I had started following their channels well before being a “Youtuber” was a well-known occupancy. They would do makeup hauls, clothing hauls, tutorials, and wish list videos. I just remember being brainwashed into wanting all the products they had. I wanted to constantly go shopping to buy new things. But of course, I couldn’t afford to constantly spend my mom's money. I still can't afford it that matter.
I was raised in a fairly frugal way of living, which only made me feel more ashamed of myself. Fashion can be toxic. That's a pretty well-known fact. But I'm a blogger. I love clothes. Most people tell me I should become a "designer". The fact is, I don't think I would be content working in the fashion industry.
Everything I put in my blog-whether that be my photos or my writing-it's all very personal. I have never written or included photos of anything that didn't remotely inspire or motivate me. The one exception would be my first and last makeup post. That was just me at the start of my blogging days, trying to blend Youtubing and Blogging into one entity. Trying to write about things I wasn't all too passionate about. That didn't last very long.
All those beauty Youtubers I used to watch, I no longer do. They've evolved (most into "lifestyle" Youtubers whatever that entails), and I've evolved. I've found a more sincere and humbling connection to those that don't make videos full time. We all have lives outside of the internet and I think it's important we are conscious enough to put a barrier between the two.
I also think it's important for me to not let fashion overrule my decisions. To take my time and find what inspires me. To wear what I want to wear.
Everything thrifted aka the best way to live life.
My thoughts were pretty all over the place. Hopefully, I was somewhat legible?
Thanks for reading,