Sometimes (though rarely) I look back at my old posts. When I do I just think about how I idolized Kristina Bazan's old style and that of Blair from Atlantic Pacific. It was thanks to their blogs that I started pushing and experimenting my style. Blair was the first blogger I became a regular reader of and was how I found my way to creating my own blog.
Back then I fantasized over their dainty, girly outfits and expensive designer pieces. I dreamed of owning my own Chanel bag, Gucci jacket, and YSL makeup. I would window online shop (if you will) on all the designer websites and make wish list upon wish list. I believe I wrote a few wish list-esk posts on here :) Yesterday I happened to wander through that time consuming black hole of looking back at a blogger's old posts. In this case Kristina's. But I also read Kristina's more recent post about her style and interest shift and I could completely relate. Though it brings back a warming feeling for recalling those earlier posts, I no longer idolize her girly style as much as I did so in the past. Over the course of 3(?) years my style has been evolving into a unique representation of myself. My tastes and interests are developing and I suppose I'm starting to discover a better side of myself through it all.
Beside the replaceable clothes that I wear, I've also been working on becoming a better person. It's a constant mental struggle catching yourself doing or saying something you never intentionally wanted to, though you do subconsciously. I'm trying to be a nicer, more compassionate, friendlier, and open person. I've been listening to lots of 60s music ('Calendar Girl' is my current jam) and I feel like it's definitely helped put me in a more positive mood.
I'm finding it rather difficult putting my thoughts into a comprehensible way. But another thing I'm working is my communication skills. I want to be able to express my ideas and knowledge through my words.
This is one of my walls, currently a wip. Love how it's coming together. It's totally in your face, but I guess that too describes my style haha.
Thanks for reading,